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No good without bad

I almost forgot to wish myself happy birthday.

As today was passing by, I had exiting news. I was even LOVING MY LIFE.

This whole week was awesome and I haven’t been that bubbly for a long time.

& of course, something bad had to happen.


I knew that weird feeling I had today in the bus would be bad news.

This sensation of having my finger cut was really unpleasant. I thought I was making up ideas and everything.

Turns out one little thing can totally crash my mood.

I get emotional over nothing serious… And that’s probably why I block every kind of feelings I would have towards someone.

How could anyone like me if I can’t even like myself ?

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I’ve been REALLY lazy these days.. and didn’t take the time to come on here and post the other colors of nailpolish i bought so here i am ! Like i said in my post, I’ve been spending alot lately on useless things, like nailpolishes, magazines, useless products…
Am i the only one who wants to try all the stuffs that you see on the shelters in a drugstore ?
Am i the only one who wants to be able to have an opinion on most of all the products in a drugstore ?
Is that a disease ?!

And then, i felt like buying some magazines and yeah not ONE but i absolutely had to buy 2 of them. This month, the weather has been really really weird.
One day you could be wearing some short shorts because it was so hot that we thought summer was just around the corner. The flowers were blooming and you could wear your sunglasses. The next day you had you take out your goose out because there was SNOW. What the hell mother nature =/.
But this week, the weather has been really nice 🙂 .
Its sprinnnng ! ( i hope its for good now ) .
I remember last year, at the exact same week, it was really hot outside and i was actually at my friend’s birthday at St-sulpice.
Tomorow, we’re heading back there for her 19th birthday 🙂 Its crazy how time runs so fast !

Lately, i’ve been thinking alot about how ironic my life was.
People tend to think that i have lots of friends because i never hang with the same people. But truth is that the reason why i’m never with the same people is because i don’t fit in. I actually don’t really have any friends except a few ( you people know who you are ). They say that real friends can be counted in one hand. Everyone knows its true but don’t you think its kind of sad ?
I feel like everyone already have their own group of friends and i’m actually intruding everyone’s group.
I realized that maybe i should of tried harder back in highschool because it seems like that was the time where you make real friends. I remember how much drama i had/still have related to some people but i feel like i’m not doing anything wrong.
I just don’t like people to think what they’re not and then making you feel lower than what you really are to boost themselves.
I’ve said once that i tend to be mean/cold to people because i’m the kind of person that cares easily, that likes easily, that falls easily. Meaning that if anything happens, i would be the one hurt. And rejecting people is a way to protect myself i guess.
But either way, if you want it or not, you start to feel lonely.
I feel like i’m not worth any friendships and that it is too late for me.

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Like No wonder

I just got my lip pierced 🙂
Before getting it i thought it would look good on me but now, the more i look at it, the more i think its weird on me.
I’m not saying that i’m regretting it but ..i don’t know. maybe i should of waited or something =/
Enjoy :my new piercing :)

I don’t get how my friends hear from some random singers/bands/shows.
Recently, i’ve been looking at what people were linking on facebook and i saw my friend Jacob posting this video :

Isn’t he goooood ? I LOVE his voice & i really like his style of music.
J’aime découvrir de nouvelles choses 🙂
Ohh and Gaga’s new videoclip is out ! 🙂 “TELEPHONE” featuring Beyonce :

This week was my march “break” & honestly, i haven’t done any shits.
I haven’t done anything for school and i’m very behind in all my classes… which really sucks.
In addition, i’ve been gaining SO MUCH WEIGHT. Its practically unbelievable…. and very disgusting.
I need to MOVE, do some sports or whatever.
Since my birthday, i’ve been eating like crazy. I eat when i’m outside and when i get home, i feel bad because there’s food made for me so i keep on eating until i’m super fully bloated and i tend to fall asleep really fast because i get home late ….and it turns out that i’m tired so yeah….
I almost forgot, i turned 19 years old last saturday. &
my birthday celebration at Ivy Nightclub turned out to be very bad. I collapsed and don’t remember anything of it.
Sometimes i think i should stop drinking that much…but i just can’t help it… i like drinking. I think it feels good even if it does tastes bad. I’ve been talking about that to Jenny before i got my lip pierced… and yeah …I don’t know..I know i’m not an alcoholic since i’m not addicted to drinking and i can easily not drink for like a few weeks…
Ok that statement was kind of hard to tell, since i’ve been going out/clubbing/partying everyweek for about 2 years now …
I need to gros up and find something to do …..
Oh well, Take care TORMENTEDWORLD readers.

PS : that guy i was suppose to see at my birthday, didnt come out afterall .
& now he’s in vacation.
I guess we were just meant to not see each other.
I remember back in the days, when i wanted to see him in class, he wouldn’t be there.
When i wanted him to sit next to me, he would be sitting at some random places.
Now, when he tells me to go see him, i never feel like it because we don’t have any friends in common.
When i’m the one asking him out, he’s always saying that he would pass by, but obviously, he never does.
Ah well, i guess i’m not gonna see him for like…another bunch of months.
I saw a picture tagged of him on facebook, and he looks ADORABLE.
I think he got more healthy because back in the days, he either was always sick or he had his intense allergies.
And now that he had a fresh haircut, he looks handsome 🙂

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