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Monday, february 18th 2013 – No direction

Just about the moment I was going to describe my day as a failure, something out of the blue came out.
Turns out when I was thinking about letting all my hopes of getting implicated in any student activities, some other opportunities came up.

I’m actually really glad to have met some people that wants to get into this world as much as I do.

After my session with my orientation counsellor, all I figure out was that I had no clue where I was heading to in my studies.

Turns out I pretty much like everything.
I can say that I love management and she will ask me why and I can give all the reasons why I should be studying in Management.
I could say I love Marketing and give out all the reasons why I should be opting for that field instead.
My problem is that I’m not someone that has a precise opinion.

I mostly follow the “trend” as we could say.
I know I want to be successful in what I will achieve later on, no matter what I will be doing.
The only thing is that I have no clue what I’m good at .

This might seems like I’m degrading myself like my friend tells me…but from my point of view, I think of it much more as how lost I am.

direction

Any clue how I could figure out myself ?

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Fierce

I’ve been REALLY lazy these days.. and didn’t take the time to come on here and post the other colors of nailpolish i bought so here i am ! Like i said in my post, I’ve been spending alot lately on useless things, like nailpolishes, magazines, useless products…
Am i the only one who wants to try all the stuffs that you see on the shelters in a drugstore ?
Am i the only one who wants to be able to have an opinion on most of all the products in a drugstore ?
Is that a disease ?!

And then, i felt like buying some magazines and yeah not ONE but i absolutely had to buy 2 of them. This month, the weather has been really really weird.
One day you could be wearing some short shorts because it was so hot that we thought summer was just around the corner. The flowers were blooming and you could wear your sunglasses. The next day you had you take out your goose out because there was SNOW. What the hell mother nature =/.
But this week, the weather has been really nice 🙂 .
Its sprinnnng ! ( i hope its for good now ) .
I remember last year, at the exact same week, it was really hot outside and i was actually at my friend’s birthday at St-sulpice.
Tomorow, we’re heading back there for her 19th birthday 🙂 Its crazy how time runs so fast !

Lately, i’ve been thinking alot about how ironic my life was.
People tend to think that i have lots of friends because i never hang with the same people. But truth is that the reason why i’m never with the same people is because i don’t fit in. I actually don’t really have any friends except a few ( you people know who you are ). They say that real friends can be counted in one hand. Everyone knows its true but don’t you think its kind of sad ?
I feel like everyone already have their own group of friends and i’m actually intruding everyone’s group.
I realized that maybe i should of tried harder back in highschool because it seems like that was the time where you make real friends. I remember how much drama i had/still have related to some people but i feel like i’m not doing anything wrong.
I just don’t like people to think what they’re not and then making you feel lower than what you really are to boost themselves.
I’ve said once that i tend to be mean/cold to people because i’m the kind of person that cares easily, that likes easily, that falls easily. Meaning that if anything happens, i would be the one hurt. And rejecting people is a way to protect myself i guess.
But either way, if you want it or not, you start to feel lonely.
I feel like i’m not worth any friendships and that it is too late for me.

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Like No wonder

I just got my lip pierced 🙂
Before getting it i thought it would look good on me but now, the more i look at it, the more i think its weird on me.
I’m not saying that i’m regretting it but ..i don’t know. maybe i should of waited or something =/
Enjoy :my new piercing :)

I don’t get how my friends hear from some random singers/bands/shows.
Recently, i’ve been looking at what people were linking on facebook and i saw my friend Jacob posting this video :



Isn’t he goooood ? I LOVE his voice & i really like his style of music.
J’aime découvrir de nouvelles choses 🙂
Ohh and Gaga’s new videoclip is out ! 🙂 “TELEPHONE” featuring Beyonce :

This week was my march “break” & honestly, i haven’t done any shits.
I haven’t done anything for school and i’m very behind in all my classes… which really sucks.
In addition, i’ve been gaining SO MUCH WEIGHT. Its practically unbelievable…. and very disgusting.
I need to MOVE, do some sports or whatever.
Since my birthday, i’ve been eating like crazy. I eat when i’m outside and when i get home, i feel bad because there’s food made for me so i keep on eating until i’m super fully bloated and i tend to fall asleep really fast because i get home late ….and it turns out that i’m tired so yeah….
I almost forgot, i turned 19 years old last saturday. &
my birthday celebration at Ivy Nightclub turned out to be very bad. I collapsed and don’t remember anything of it.
Sometimes i think i should stop drinking that much…but i just can’t help it… i like drinking. I think it feels good even if it does tastes bad. I’ve been talking about that to Jenny before i got my lip pierced… and yeah …I don’t know..I know i’m not an alcoholic since i’m not addicted to drinking and i can easily not drink for like a few weeks…
Ok that statement was kind of hard to tell, since i’ve been going out/clubbing/partying everyweek for about 2 years now …
I need to gros up and find something to do …..
Oh well, Take care TORMENTEDWORLD readers.

PS : that guy i was suppose to see at my birthday, didnt come out afterall .
& now he’s in vacation.
I guess we were just meant to not see each other.
I remember back in the days, when i wanted to see him in class, he wouldn’t be there.
When i wanted him to sit next to me, he would be sitting at some random places.
Now, when he tells me to go see him, i never feel like it because we don’t have any friends in common.
When i’m the one asking him out, he’s always saying that he would pass by, but obviously, he never does.
Ah well, i guess i’m not gonna see him for like…another bunch of months.
I saw a picture tagged of him on facebook, and he looks ADORABLE.
I think he got more healthy because back in the days, he either was always sick or he had his intense allergies.
And now that he had a fresh haircut, he looks handsome 🙂

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Dancing into Danger

Have you ever felt like you’ve been betrayed by your closest friends ?

Maybe it’s just me.
Maybe i’m just overanalyzing everything.

I just don’t get why some people who’ve always been there for you just leave.
Before even realizing it, you guys are already strangers.
I don’t wanna be a burden.
But i also don’t wanna loose you.

People come and go
and its quite true.

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